12/18/2005

feeling out of place...

i thought i knew everything, i thought i had it made and had what i wanted but thats just the way i felt through high school, but now im living on my own 2,000 miles from home, and i feel as out of place as i did before i went into high school. Im getting feelings and thoughts i thought i had removed or put in the back of my head come back recently, images in my mind of being so selfless, i just really want to be forgotten and too i want to be out of the spotlight.



1 comment:

Tara said...

Hang in there Darren. I know exactly what you mean. I too am far away from home (4713 miles to be exact) and away from my three children.

But it takes guts to move to a new place and start again, and you should be proud you did it. Whats better, saying you made a decision to start again and followed through on it. Or wondering "what if?" for the rest of your life? Don't give up now.

But in order to move on and get on with your life, you need to stop thinking about Erica and your past. Maybe you guys have unfinished business and you need to close that chapter in your life before moving on.

My personal opinion is that you've done well for yourself, don't let all that go. Keep moving forward and you'll realize that you did the right thing.