recurring attack dreams

hello people, like 2 people that read this, here i am going to talk about a common theme here about attack dreams ive had before.

this morning i woke up with a resounding dark deep feeling ponder whats the next animal or insect im going to be attacked by in a dream. currently here are the animals ive been attacked by in dreams, get prepared to laugh

bears (4+ times)
sharks (1)
cougars(2 to 3 times)
bees(500+ times)
whales(1 time)
belugas(1 time)
dolphins(1 time) (i find this quite funny cause dolphins are harmless)
piranhas(here and there)

ater lay


i have to take back the town

heres the problem i facing..
i moved here 2 and a half years ago, to turn over a new leaf, it takes you know who 30 seconds to make my life miserable, i felt like my lifes dignity i was working to get back was stolen within 15 minutes of me being here 2 abd 1/2 years latet i hate my life but i cant just sit back and let time go by..
to sum up what ive been talking about here im the america after 911 if i sit back and watch my life will crumble before me she is the terrorism im the rest of the world, im trying to get back to town and enjoy what i used to do..
i want her to leave me alone!!!

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On songwriting...

well im getting back at writing songs right now, well at least this week, it seems that lately that i have had a number of songs worked on but never finished..it seemed my love life was still in the traffic pattern (aviaton term) so im still working on getting a girl to hang out with...
now that i am going to have my own bach pad i think its a great place to live and help with my songwriting...
i want to buy one of those portable mp3 reorder like the edirol r-09 or the m-audio multitrack...
id like to have it also for when i go to europe in april..

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so where have i been

hmm...dang i havent been blogging lately...ive been more facebooking...
ill update you soon

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i have messed up...

i admit that in the past i had written about you know who. Blatently using her name instead of something like "you know who or "that girl" i just went through and removed those posts...i dont want to hear her name ever again...


when you forget you wrote them..

so im googling myself the other day...i try to see what other shit it has found...

but for ages ive been searching for this song i wrote around 2002-2003 or so...

if anyone has an mp3 of it id love it..

i went out west and wasn't worried
but when i landed back home
i felt so sad
and i felt so mad
that i was home
and only a short time away
from a girl
that i waited 4 years to say

but i dont have that chance anymore
im walking right out the door
to this life that im living
it makes me want to quit it
i dont know what im saying,
its this dumb song im playing
the same 3 chords all the time
but i dont feel this way all the time
im waiting for someone
to share this instant romance
someone who shares interests
and really likes to dance
but im stuck here all alone
no one has called me on the phone
no one knows that i exist
its something that i miss?

and also i have a few old ones i found on cbc radio 3. search darren elliott.. the alone isnt ild or not being found so the other one is...i want to put it on the soundclick site


"if you love something give it away"-bright eyes

wow its may 1st and i havent updated my blog..
here it goes...are you ready..
nothing is new!!! except ive got an ipod shuffle 2nd gen for my birthday..(blue color)

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all my old cadet mates... on facebook

Back before the guitar, before the living in banff there was the cadets. small squad of about 400 people (may not be exact) there were a lot of people i had almost forgotten.. by the time i had finished the cadet regime there were a lot of people that were better destined than me. most of them are either mothers, fighting in afghanistan or doing something military related..

its just amazing how many people are still around...and now they all take a look around on facebook and our group for alumini or cadets from 19th squadron air cadets stratford, Ontario.


enjoy...dont join unless you were once one...


almost there but a long way to go..

well im working on finishing the goblet of fire, im on chapter nineteen in the book, right about the time that harry gets chosen for the triwiard tournament. At the moment his friends hermione and ron seem to not be much of his friends now that he was mistakenly added to the tournament.
I havent wanted to put this book down...man i reccomend to all of you who have a urning for harry potter to read this one...so cool..

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trying to find a new place...

i have till the 17th to move out of my brothers place...so his buddies can move in

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99 things

 How old will you be in five years?
30 ugh cant afford myself to think about it..

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
doing baskets and buggies at work

3. How tall are you?

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
absolutely nothing

5. What's the last movie you saw?
The Illusuionist

6. Who was the last person you called?
not sure..

7. Who was the last person to call you?
My Sister

8. What was the last text message you receiveved?
wanna go up the gondola this week? from my sister

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?
haven't checked it yet but might be  something there

10. Do you prefer to call or text?

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced

13. When is the last time you saw your mom?
back in feburary

14. What color are your eyes?

15. What time did you wake up today?

16. What are you wearing right now?
work clothes

17. What is your favorite Christmas song?
Christmas Baby Please Come Home-U2

18. Where is your favorite place to be?

19. Where is your least favourite place to be?

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
A drunken loser..like all the rest
22. Do you tan or burn?

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Ghosts not monsters, never monsters

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
my pharmacy guy laughing at the canmore nordic center map..

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2, i only use 1

26. How big is your bed?

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?

28. Do you sleep with clothes on or off?
Pajama pants and a t-shirt in the winter and just boxers in the summer

29. What color are your sheets?

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

31. What is your favorite season?
I like them all except Fall

32. What do you like about fall?
What do I DISLIKE about fall? Everything...its so lame

33. What do you like about winter?

34. What do you like about the summer?
Long days & Hot nights,
35. What do you like about spring?
36. How many states/provinces have you lived in?
 - Ontario
 - Alberta

37. What cities/towns have you lived in?
St. Marys, Banff..

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Bare Feet
39. Are you a social person?
I am when I want to be........

40. What was the last thing you ate?

41. What is your favorite restaurant?

42. What is your favorite ice cream?
Vanilla! ..

43. What is your favorite dessert?
Cream Cheese..

44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Safeway Tuscan Tomato Basil..

45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?

46. Do you like Chinese food?
Chinese Chicken Ball...

47. Do you like coffee?
No, unless its served with that coffe mate like stuff.. .

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
Like 2 or 3 bottles...whatever that equates to...

49. What do you drink in the morning?
The fresh air...
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
Sprawled out in the middle....

52. Do you know how to play poker?
No not really

53. Do you like to cuddle?

54. Have you ever been to Canada?
The question really is, have you?

55. Do you have an addictive personality?
I'm not really too sure...prolly not

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Not Yet

59. Do you want kids?

60. Do you speak any other languages?
A bit of french and tiny amounts of itialian
61. Have you ever gotten stitches?

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
yes...many um...times...uh...

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seats?
Window...rock on...4 hours of straring at a peice of metal flap in the wind

65. Do you know how to drive stick?

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Clothes...guitar stuff

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?

68. What is your favorite TV show?

69. Can you roll your tongue?
Nope...I can stick it out tho!

70. Who is the funniest person you know?
Dean in the Pharmacy at safeway #208

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Absolutely not

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
You Don't Know...some rap tune...

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?

74. What red object is closest to you right now?
My Jacket

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?

76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
Have i ever had a walk in closet....um...NOOOO!!!

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
Both...they both kill me within a matter of minutes..

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Sweet & Sour sauce by preference

80. What is your favorite food?
Pizza, Sandwiches, Fish and Chips..

81. Can you change the oil on a car?
Ummm yeah....

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
NO...at least not yet..

83. Have you ever run out of gas?
....I'll spare you the drama story because im getting sick of typing

84. What is your usual bedtime?
1 AM-ish

85. What was the last book you read?
Harry Potter and the Prisoner one...

86. Do you read the newspaper?
Yes, all the time

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
Not at the moment...

89. Do you watch soap operas?

90. Do you dance in the car?
91. What radio station did you last listen to?
106.5 Banff Fm radio.
92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
seeing as im at a int cafe,,,thinking here...well at home it would be a photo of a u2 tribute band thats from toronto..

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
a jot of a map...

94. What is your favorite candle scent?
ooooo...I dont really know....

95. What is your favorite board game?
97. When was the last time you attended church?
Oooo....geez I don't know....eeeek...can't remember

98. Who was your favorite teacher in high school?
cant remeber that far

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
not sure...maybe a week...did i say weak...cause my hands are...

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wow already on the 4th book already..

instead of posting about suicide i thought id share what im up to..
Books i have finished in harry potter series
Philosopher's Stone [DONE]
Chamber of Secrets[DONE]
Prisoner of Azkaban[DONE]
Goblet of Fire[Just Started] on Chapter 2 already...
ill keep you updated...

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i hate having to write this...

but i'm so hating my life right now, i hate that the thing i've been holding off for so long keeps bothering me at work, its not like she's talking to me its more like i'm in their way. and being as valentines day is coming up soon i just... you know i hate having them here.
anyways id rather be 6 feet underground then anywhere else...

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happy new year

not much is going on...cant talk about the previous year because nothing good became of this past  year!!!

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