5/16/2010

does it make any sence to anyone else

it just doesnt add up...doesnt make sense. Have you ever met someone you worked with that made your day much better than the way it is? I did. Now i wont go into details on what actually happened buti really liked her. I did a lot of things for her to try to earn "brownie points" so to say, i emptied the garbage for the are in the same store i was working and anything else she needed to be done.....then one week in may she decides shes going to go to go back home, whic is fine with me, im not gonna tell her if she or if she cant go...its her life...im fine. its cool. We talked like wildfire that week, life was flowing and i didnt care where she went or what she did. We were good freinds.I quote some katy perry because it is 10x more than true "we used to be just like twins so in sync, the same energy now a dead battery, used to laugh bout nothing now youre plain boring" descrinbes it to a T.

Then 2 weeks later she arrived back in banff from her time home in ontario and we went from that to not a single word from her or I. I figured it would be just a few days or so then shed be talking to me again. Nope. In a nutshell, we never discussed that i was leaving to move home to where i am today. Not one word from either of us!!

I often wonder when i sit here and listen to itunes songs and think that maybe i did/said/knew/heard something she didnt or said something rude or...you know....i just dont know...even though im not focusing on the past i just wonder if the freindfshop with her could have continuted. All this was was a friendship, nothing more. Aand even at that she ignored me for some reason...and to this day i dont know why...not one idea!! If it was me then she could have told me what i did/said that make her ignore me and guess what i would have made a change so that it didnt happen again...but since i dont know what caused it im all on my own at this point...

and thats just it...al this little post was about...just what the heck made her go silent...


my thought on what happened in ontario

1)she got married
2)she got in a car crash and couldnt remeber me
3)she was ignoring me because maybe.....you see i just dont know (as well)

someting big happened in ontario because it literaly happened overnight and she was a changed person for sure when she walked back in through the door...

*i have left the name of the person as annonymous as i fear the name getting out and she could get stalked..

but i just dont get it...it just doesnt add up...

anyone in the same boat...
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